Friday morning started with headache even though there was NO drinking on Thursday - and it sucks.  

Mother's back from her vacation - I was not happy to have her back, but cried when saw her coming closer and closer in the airport bus - I have become too sentimental. Starting from next Monday, it's gonna be all the same again - getting up at 7.50, running to pick her up and take to work. It's a lack of my sleep, my fuel, my life...

I'm looking forward to weekends - to catch some sleep, cook a good dinner and help Mom with her garden. 

What are your plans for the weekend? 

P.S. This headache is killing me...

Some news!

When Gram died on May, 7th, I had a job interview with Ron, Alaskan representative of Swagelok company. Actually, Ron is the director of "Alaska Valve & Fitting Co." that is in Anchorage, Alaska. 

I first met Ron when I was working in "Supplier" LLC in 2006, and he even helped (a few times) to transfer some gifts to my Sweety. It was when he kinda offered me a job in the branch we was going to open on Sakhalin. I refused to accept as I had already had a job that I liked. Then I started to work for SNGS, and Ron appeared in my life again, and I again refused. And when I lost a job in SNGS, I remembered about Ron and gave him a call. The end of the story is that after making a short job interview, he said I was taken!!! 

Officially started to work on June, 1st, but as there was no phone and Internet line in the office, Michael and I were sitting at home, and I was working on some documents. Oh, you don't know who Mike is! Mike is my coworker. The personnel of "Sakhalin Valve & Fittings" consists only of 2 people - me & Mike! Mike is Regional Sales Director, and I am Contracts and Document Control Manager. And as Ron and Marina (his interpreter) are in Alaska, and we keep in touch via phone and email, we are able to do whatever we want. No, that doesn't mean we are not working and just surfing the Internet all day long - NO! We work! And we are looking for new customers! :)

Ron said he will be paying some bonuses if the business goes well (What does it mean "if the busines goes well"???), and as they don't provide any extra medical insurance & dentist & payable toll road, and my salary is less than the one I had in SNGS, I had to look for some extra work that would bring some extra profit.

I was surfing the Net, looking for some cleaning lady vacancies, and found none! Finally, after 3 weeks of hope, I found a job in a night club as a hatcheck girl . The schedule is horrible, but since it is the best chance I could get, I like it. The club works 5 days a week - Wednesday to Sunday, 10 PM to 6-7 AM. Remembering that I also have another job, I sleep only 3-5 hours a day on Monday, Tuesday and Friday. My first working week in a club is over, and I am not dead yet - that means I will work there as long as I can. 

Mother stopped crying (remember - Gram passed away), but asks me on what WE gonna do with the apartment and which color would be better for the new wallpapers. It makes me sick! I told her thousands of times that I am ALREADY 22, and I will never ever live with her until she's fully paralyzed and won't be able to take care of herself, and that I want to sell this big apartment and buy 2 apartments: 2-room apartment for Mommy and 1-room apartment for me. More than that, she can take all the money left from the sale, and get a new furniture. I told her that thousands of times. And it makes me really, really, really sick and angry when she asks which color would be better for the new wallpapers as it means she will live alone in 4-room apartment (and I will pay her huge bills), and I will keep renting this small dirty room in underground floor! Sometimes I want her to also die so then I will get everything and live my life the way I want not being afraid that I'll get a call from Mommy and this call will make me run to see her. I know it is a very bad thought, but I think about it very often. 

Mother is like a little baby sometimes. Even though she raised me almost alone, without anybody's else support, without having a man, without parties and discoes, without meetings with friends and with crazy Gram constantly asking for attention, she has not got used to the real world that she has found herself into. I know she's funally starting a Life, the one she HAD to start 22 years ago, but it seems like even though she hates the way Life is now, she got used to it and even enjoys it. She often complains and makes me do everything she wants. I pick her up every morning and evening and drive to and from work, buy her groceries, pay her bills and cook a dinner every Saturday. I am really scared to have the moment when she's too old and won't work work anymore - it will be a disaster. Now she keeps saying that as Gram had died, I will use each and every chance and immigrate to America and leave her there in Russia. She constantly repeates that she won't ever move anywhere and will spend the rest of her life on Sakhalin. She says I should not ever leave her alone - but I do have my own Life and want a family - why should I always be in Yuzhno??? I truly don't want to "repeat" her Life and become her twin! I want her to meet a man and finally make a family and have someone to take care of and receive this care and love in return. 

I wrote my Sweety to wait for me until I finish college in 2010 and then we can try and see if we can make a couple. That's what I feel is right. 

In the meantime, take care everyone. I'm going to cope these messages in my LiveJournal, so you can also track them there. 

Annie